fire and ice

When I left you, Bella, I left you bleeding. Jacob was the one to stitch you back up again. That was bound to leave its mark — on both of you. I’m not sure those kinds of stitches dissolve on their own. I can’t blame either of you for something I made necessary. I may gain forgiveness, but that doesn’t let me escape the consequences. I can be noble, Bella. I’m not going to make you choose between us. Just be happy, and you can have whatever part of me you want, or none at all, if that’s better. Don’t let any debt you feel you owe me influence your decision. - Edward Cullen, Eclipse chapter 24 

I’m exactly right for you, Bella. It would have been effortless for us — comfortable, easy as breathing. I was the natural path your life would have taken… If the world was the way it was supposed to be, if there were no monsters and no magic. He’s like a drug for you. I see that you can’t live without him now. It’s too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun. - Jacob black, Eclipse chapter 26

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If you were bella, who would you choose?

It will sound right and normal if I say "If I were Bella, I would fuck off to another side of the world, leave that fucking monster things, and start a normal life, and get over them, and marry a human, and have kids." 

But, loving somebody can't make us normal, we can be so absurd, I think, till we wouldn't be able to handle ourselves, and no logically words could explain how and why. 

being in love sucks.

ps: It's worse when you have to choose between a dead man and a dog. that's even more pathetic. :)))))))))